Vacation

I am on vacation this week, however I'm sick as all fuck. What a way to spend it? Not only that but Aidan's sick, and my wife is sick as well. Looks like we might miss out on traveling to NY.

Actually, Aidan's not "sick", so don't worry, he just has a cold...a particulary nasty one at that. He's still in good spirits, being his usual smiley giggly active self, but he's all congested and a has runny nose. Plus he doesn't sleep much since he's all congested. But like I said, he's fine, being all cute and stuff like normal. However mum and dad aren't sleeping at all, and we are both cranky and on each other's last nerve due to this. It's frustrating.

Anyways, update on the move: nothing. We're getting the kitchen redone this week, and we have to finish retiling the bathroom. We choose to go with the 13x13 Keyera Beige Ceramic Tile instead of the 4x4 which was what was there previous. Not only is it nice, but it was only 98 cents a tile at Lowe's. (Item#49050)well it was cheaper then that since I had 20% off the week we purchased it with my xmas discount.

All that's left is to repaint 3 rooms, refinish the wood floors, and re-carpet 3 rooms. Then we can actually put the house up. But, we're still undecisive on where we want to go. I want to go back to NY...Saratoga actually. It's fricking nice up there, afforadable, and not too far from anything. Plus it's a happening lil town, especially when horse track season is on. My wife wants to relocate to Florida (ick), her parents want to go back to MN....but the rest of the family is trying to convince them to move to PA. I won't mind PA, but MN...for god's sake I'll be leaving everything I know and love by moving that far off.

No more summers at the Jersey shore, or forays into Boston to harass the BoSox fans....drunken fun in Montreal...Pizza and shopping and shit in NYC...the track at Saratoga...cheesesteaks in Philly....and of course my hometown of Albany. For me it's a lot to give up....And for Aidan too. He's going to be far from my parents, which to me doesn't seem fair.

My wife moved a lot when she was a kid, so it seems it doesn't faze her to relocate. But my whole thing is I don't think she realizes how much I am sacrificing by going along with her. I told her numerous times I didn't want to go that far, but it seems that she doesn't 1) care or 2) comprehend. I don't want Aidan to miss out on being around my parents. It's not fair to them, nor to him. I'm more rooted to the Northeast then I would care to admit, and damn it I would miss it here as much as I bitch about it.

However, if I don't go, she was going to go on without me, and she said she would take Aidan with her. I can't believe she'd pull that shit on me. I was so pissed off that I couldn't even talk to her for a few hours. You'd know I'd go to court over this shit. And I told her that. I told her she wouldn't wanna fuck with me on that either, because I'd seriously make it hell for her. Plus not to mention that I'd most likely win a custody battle due to that I was able to provide for Aidan more then she could. (Being unemployed for 1 1/2 years sure as fuck didn't help her none...good job on quitting a good job with no backup hun.) That's all I can say. I'd definitely more of the provider and caregiver then she could be if we ever split. But, she claimed, the courts ALWAYS side with the mother. And it turned ugly from there.

I'm not sure if I can make this work anymore. I don't want to just get up and leave, I want to work things out for Aidan's sake. but it seems the more we "try" the worse things can get. Always arguing about the same shit.....money, work, apartment/house...

I'm out.